So I haven't been on here in quite a while to post anything. Not that anything new has really been happening. Casey and I started our new semester. It's been hard. It's been very intense and it's only been a month! But I love school. I know Casey does as well. I find my classes pretty interesting but I have to admit I feel as though I'm struggling. I still have good grades and I have no intention of letting them slip but I do feel like I'm stressed all the time. A little stress is good. This stress is making me wear out pretty fast.
It was the stress and a few other things that forced Casey and I to take a good look at our situation. We both love working, love going to school and both want out family to expand. There isn't a way for both of us to do all three. So we decided that after this semester I would go down to part time. I will take next semester off and the following spring I will only do one class to stay an active student at LCSC. Our hope is that by me taking time off school and just working we can focus on savings a bit more so by the end of the year we can actively pursue expanding our family.
On that note, it's going to be such a hard journey. I'm dreading it. I wish that nature would just work for us and solve the problem but that's not going to happen. Either we need a lot of medical help or adoption. And neither of those are guarantees either. We could very easily spend years and a lot of money and still never have children on this earth. It's depressing and overwhelming. And it makes me angry and I resent my body that doesn't work right.
Anyway, enough of that. I'm sorry to sound like a downer.
On the bright side our cat is having his first birthday on Wednesday. We got him a couple of silly gifts. Catnip bubbles and mouse toys. Hahaha. I will admit that a big part of me feels pathetic. I love out cat but he isn't my child and it's not a great substitute. But at least we have an official birthday for him to celebrate. :0)